| Monday, December 20th, 2004 |
| 11:41 pm |
WOOOOHOOOOO
I got a package in the mail from Emma today and it feels like something good! LOL I can't wait it's almost time! So the last 2 nights have been hell. I hate *KA* and *AG* they can both lick donkey balls! We've been so busy and I've asked them both for extra help in the evenings and they did nothing so HAHA hope you like the overtime suckers! The last 3 three nights I've closed I have gotten out at least 20 mins late! Serves them right! I've also had the rudest customers ever one is even trying to get another barista fired! Jerk! For a season of happiness I'm quite bitter and angry I can't wait till it's over. It's like people think it's ok to be rude because I'm suppose to be nice because it's a holiday. 2 more days to go I'm still very pissed about having to work 8 days in a row it's totally not cool and I'm exhausted! Current Mood:  bitchy |
| Thursday, December 16th, 2004 |
| 9:34 pm |
Hooray
SO everything with Bernie is cool now. We worked it all out and I got some advice from *JC* and I was very thankfull cuz it was good advice. So things are better and Bernie says he'll do better at managing all his finances and stuff so he better or Ill be an angry monkey! But onto other things, I picked up my plate from crankpots *YAY* *JC* said it looked like a plate you eat cake on yummmmmmmm cake! And now I'm doing a tile it has a rubber ducky and bubbles on it I love it its cute I'll probably put it in my bathroom Current Mood:  drained |
| Monday, December 13th, 2004 |
| 5:01 pm |
What am I going to do?
I got home from work last night and me and Bernie got into a fight. He came in at 5 am after being out and I was pissed cuz when we hang out hes asleep by 1 am and I'm usually up alone. So we get into a fight and I just get angrier and angrier and I wanted to punch him in the face cuz I wanted to hurt him bad and I know I sound crazy but I was just so mad! Bernie is just such a moron sometimes I cant even beleive it he's just so clueless on so many levels when it comes to me it's like HELLO we've been together for almost 2 years and you still haven't figured anything out. I don't ask a lot from him I really don't I can take care of myself but he makes it sound like I ask for the friggin stars and the moon. All I want is for us to go out dancing once in awhile but that's too much to ask for since as Bernie put it he's self conscience and he's shy to dance infront of people and Im cool with that Im not going to get angry at someone because they're not comfortable with something I'm not a jerk. So I don't ever get to go out dancing because I was ever to dance with some guy Bernie would flip he thinks every guy wants to bang me because I have jugs he is so ridiculous! So anyways even though I love dancing and it's like my most favourate thing to do ever I don't do it and then I find out that while he was out the other night he was dancing with his work friends! JERK I ask for one thing that would make me happy and I don't get it because it makes him uncomfortable but apparently its comfortable with other people. So I told him it was over! I don't want a boyfriend who lies to me and tells me one thing and does another he can go to hell and then he starts crying. I don't know what he has to cry about I'm the one who's getting the shaft. It's just so bloody complicated I'm frustrated I want to scream and cry and just fall into a hole and never come out. So after all this I bring up everything else and all he can say is he's sorry for being a bad boyfriend. O.K so you know you can be a bad boyfriend at times so what are you going to do about it. I guess he wants to be this way forever and if that's the case I want nothing to do with it. So I'm waiting for him to get home from work so we can work this shit out. If we are completely broken up I need to know today and then fugure out what we're going to do with all out stuff and out apartment. I'm not going to drag through this and stretch it out all week if we are seperating I want it done quick so I can move on theres no use making it harder. Current Mood: aggravatedCurrent Music: Audioslave |
| Saturday, December 11th, 2004 |
| 11:31 pm |
I'm angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate people! So we close at 10pm and I don't understand why people can't get the hell out at 10 it's like people like being asked repeatedly to get out. So it took forever for everyone to get out which then caused me to get out late. I really hate closing it's driving me crazy! So then Bernie asked me to hang out with him and his work friends and I was like sure cuz I like a few of them and then he asked me if I would bus downtown after work by myself cuz they would be leaving earlier and I was like no way just go. And then I get home and find out that he left 20 mins before I got home so he could've waited JERK he's dead meat. And he was suppose to leave me $$$ to pay off his Rogers fine because I wanted to rent a movie and guess what he forgot. So no fun and no movie for me. I'm really pissed off this is not cool. I need a new boyfriend maybe my morning honey can fill the position! Bernie has been annoying me on a larger scale and we've talked about it and if things don't get better Im just going to dump him. He's not a bad person and all my friends always talk about what a great guy he is but still if Im not completely happy I don't want to deal with that for the rest of my life so he'll have to go if he doesn't get his shit together. I feel bad cuz Im going off on this Bernie rant but I have to. We don't do a lot of things together anymore because we have such conflicting schedules and when it's possible for us to do things we just don't it's weird because we're home together a lot but we're usually tired and one of us has to go to bed and wake up early the next morning. Blah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: pissed offCurrent Music: NKOTB Step by Step (LOL) |
| Friday, December 10th, 2004 |
| 8:47 pm |
Painting is fun!!!!!!!!!
I was so tired all day I had to wake up at 4am for the second day in a row after like 2 hours of sleep the first night and then 3 last night.GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR I just felt like slacking all morning and I pretty much did. When the work day was finally over I took up *JC*'s offer to go to crankpots and paint. *HOORAY* it was so fun I friggin love it there. I painted this plate and I love it! it's pink with a darker pink heart in the middle it's beautiful! So I can't wait till Wednesday thats when my plate will be glazed and ready and then I cant start another piece *YAY* they have all kinds of neat stuff like piggy banks and cute boxes and mugs I love it there!!!!!! So then we went to Denny's and met Bernie there that was yummy I havent been there in like a year! Current Mood:  excitedCurrent Music: Ashlee Simpson pieces of me |
| Wednesday, December 8th, 2004 |
| 11:45 am |
I have a problem!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
For some damn reason no matter what time I go to bed I can't get my ass up till 11:30am. Im such a bum. The best explanation for this would probably be all the damn closes I do at work it's totally messed up my schedule. Another reason to hate that place!!!!. So anyways yesterday was really fun but I was cold and my fingers didnt feel like typing. So I went downtown with *JC* and she bought lots of stuff I think she might be done her christmas shopping *YAY* so it was productive. I spent 64.18 on one bra having big jugs isn't very thrifty. I saw all these things I want and it would be so easy to just buy them all but I'm trying to save money to buy a house so it's getting hard. This is why I need a second job also maybe I won't sleep in to nearly noon everyday. I saw my friend my Calvin yesterday he's a hotdog vendor(lol) he loves it he makes more money than I do by alot he actually makes a little more than *KA* and he doesn't work 8 hours and he gets to stand around and talk all day and make hotdogs. He says it only sucks when its cold but then he wears like thermal undies and its ok. Hooray for Calvin the Hotdog maker who makes 5 dollars more an hour than me! So its fun shopping with *JC* cuz she wears grownup lady clothes whereas I shop in the junior trendsetter section at WINNERS(LOL). I plan on dressing like a lady soon but while Im fat it's easy to hide rolls and whatnot in jeans and t shirts. Not that I've been making a serious effort at losing the weight I gained from taking all that medication I suck! I could've lost it all by now instead I work out hard for like a week and then I don't and the same with food I always lots of fruits and veggies and then I go to new york fries and have a third of a pudding ring cake! Im a geek I really have to get in gear or I'm never gonna get into my size 4 jeans again. And the thing is it really shouldnt be hard to get back into them Im a really smalled boned girl so my average target healthy weight would put me back in those jeans. Im like obese at the moment. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I need a plan! Current Mood: crappyCurrent Music: Wallflowers Heroes |
| Tuesday, December 7th, 2004 |
| 11:00 pm |
Im so full
WOW I'm super full! I ate a lot and didn't really realize it. At least it was good food. So I spent the day shopping with *JC* it was fun I mostly bought things for other people and was tempted to buy makeup at MAC but I didn't do it. Like I need more makeup! Well actually I do I really want a bright purple eyeshadow like plum I guess. My apartment is a disaster but I don't feel like dealing with it either. Current Mood: full |
| 12:55 am |
I Love Shopping
So uh I love shopping! *YAY* and I'm going tomorrow! Nothing too excited to comment on during the last few days I lead a pretty boring life. I did go to Bernie's christmas party on friday night and that was ok it wasn't as good as last years. I love my dress and need another function to wear it to soon I love it! So anyways this whole secret santa thing is hilarious I love how no one knows anything about anyone else. Everyday someone comes up to me and is like uh I don't really know this person what should I get them and its just funny because some of these people work together like 5 days a week and they still don't seem to have a clue about anyone. Ahhhhhhhhh ignorance you gotta love it. I applied for a few jobs on friday and hopefully I hear back from someone... anyone... I need a second job I need to be saving more money than I do now to buy a house. I really want my own house BAD!!!!. I also want to get married and have kids soon. I know I'm still pretty young I'm turning 24 in January but I feel ready to do these things. I'm totally one of those take care of your family type of people and thats what I want to do. I've been thinking about going back to school but Im not really interested in that right now every profession that I'd like to be apart of is a lowpaying one so theres no point in droppin 30,000.00 on a career that pays a few dollars more than I make now. It just doesn't seem worth it. Current Mood:  energeticCurrent Music: the sound of the Gabster snoring on my couch |
| Wednesday, December 1st, 2004 |
| 10:32 pm |
I'm ready to retire!
I've decided that it's not work that I hate but the people who control it or try to manage my store that I hate they suck big juicy balls.*AG* is the biggest friggin moron ever and he doesn't even realize how stupid everything that comes out of his mouth really is. Today he came in on his day off ranting and raving that he had to come in on his day off because he had to change his alarm code. He had to change it because he and *KA* are not to have same one and they do so *AG*'s wife called him at home and gave him the heads up because he was going to get written up so he ran to work to make it look like he was the one who on his own took the initiative to correct his mistake when in fact his fat wife tips him off when he's about to get in trouble. So that's the answer to the question we always ask "How the hell is he a store manager?" his wife gets all the inside info and passes it on. Now I really hate him I wish he would just move or die either works for me! But enough about the fat one. I paired everyone up with their secret santa and I did it totally random and I dont know who got who and who got me. Im very proud of myself for not sneaking a look *YAY ME* I laughed when I saw who I got none other than *ML* LOL. At least I didn't get *AG* I'd be tempted to get him laxitives and tell him to get that stick out of his ass! Current Mood: bitchyCurrent Music: Ashlee Simpson |
| Saturday, November 27th, 2004 |
| 2:25 am |
I should be in bed
Not a very eventful day. I woke up at noon showered watched days of our lives and then went to work. Work obviously sucked balls Im starting to really hate that place. At least it was payday so that was something to smile about. I just finished watching Ju-on the Japenese movie and it was a little freaky! (YIKES) It was ok not something I want to see again. So yesterday *JC* asked me if Bernie was the one and I think after throwing in some comments here and there I said yes. I don't know though sometimes it's hard to know for sure because how do you know? I know people say you just know but I dont know. LOL I said *know* enough times there! He better be the damn one or I'm gonna pissed I spent all this time woth someone who wasn't the one. Current Mood:  confusedCurrent Music: I have Billie Jean in my head |
| Friday, November 26th, 2004 |
| 1:17 am |
I want my OC!
I had a really fun day! I hung out with *JC* and we went to see the new Bridget Jones movie and I really liked it. I thought it was bloody hilarious it was also quite sweet I enjoyed it. We also went shopping and hooray she started her Christmas shopping(*YAY*) I bought this coat from Old Navy for 50.00 and its awesome I love it! Then we had dinner *YUMMY* I love Red Robin's! And then I rushed home because the OC is on at 8 and I flippin forgot that it was the American thanksgiving and that it wasn't going to be on.WHAT A RIP OFF! I am not impressed! So I came home and have been bumming around since then. Current Mood: chipperCurrent Music: Rick Springfield Jessies Girl ( I love this song) |
| Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004 |
| 1:25 am |
What the hell?
I wrote this long entry yesterday and I thought everything worked right but I was wrong it didn't. It's not bloody here!GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Anyways I was really happy yesterday(*YAY*) I came home after work and I saw two big shiny silver presents under the tree for me *HOORAY* I sat there all happy just looking at them and then.............. right there on the couch was a receipt for my presents *SCORE* I was so happy Bernie got me this winnie the pooh ceramic piggy bank that I wanted and this winnie the pooh lamp that I saw but would never buy because I could never afford to spend that much on a lamp well I could but I wouldn't. So *HOORAY* I have the pretty lamp! Work sucked balls tonight I closed with *ML* and he wouldn't shut the hell up! I'm glad that we at least got out on time which was really surprising. Now tomorrow night will be something else I close with *JD* what the hell? is all I have to say about that! what the hell? I want to call in sick I am not impressed with the scheduling at all. I filled out the book off days book saying that I could only open on December 3rd because I had to be out at 1pm. Well surprise surprise I got scheduled 9-530 which I can't do so I brought it to the attention of *KA* yesterday and today I noticed that she switched some shifts around and now I'm off on the 3rd but I have to work 8 days in a row! This is total crap! It's like hello because you can't read I now have to work 8 days in a row! It's brutal the first 4 days are closes then I have a 9-530 and then opens Im really going to get some decent sleep on that schedule! Oh yeah and I hate the people who live below me they suck! There's this girl her boyfriend and her son. Now her son is a little peice of crap he's always up at all hours of the night yelling at his mom because he doesn't want to go to bed and then her and her boyfriend are always fighting and they're so friggin loud but whatever right I didn't care that much until now I was in the kitchen the other night and I slipped on water(LOL) and fell and they banged on their ceilings my floor with like a broom or something its like hello what is your problem are you retarded? I want to right them a nasty note telling them if I ever hear their son screaming about not going to bed again I'll throw him out the window! I can't beleive they're such jerks do they not realize that they're the loudest people in the building JERKS! They better watch out Im MAD! Current Mood: aggravatedCurrent Music: Maxwell Lifetime |
| Saturday, November 20th, 2004 |
| 6:17 pm |
Why?
SO where do I start? Everything has just been crappy lately and by everything I mean work. It was so friggin busy today and of course we were 2 people short all morning because 2 people called in sick and on top of that it was a busy day. And then my fat manager strolls in at 2pm and Im still there even though I was off at 12:30 I did an hour and a half of overtime and all fatty can say is busy day eh? Well I was one happy camper when I was sitting in the backroom sorting tips when I repeatedly heard "dammit its so busy when will it end?" HAHAHAHA I say to that maybe now he'll know how I feel all the time! And this new girl we have is just not cutting the mustard and I have no patience for those incapable of cutting the mustard! It's funny in grade 12 history when my teacher would always say "Now can you cut the mustard?" I hated it but now I find myself saying all the time Im so cool. On to other things I dreamt about Ryan the other night which was good and bad. Good because I woke up smiling and bad because what the hell am I dreaming about that poo head for? I shouldn't be doing it at all no excuses. I wish I could just rid myself of him and never ever have to think about him ever. I pretty much will never see him again and I havent seen him since september 2002 but still for some lame reason I still like to think about him. Why do we always want what we cant have? and why do we always have to think what if? What if is the worst thing in the world. What if I wasn't such a geek? Current Mood: restlessCurrent Music: Hole Miss World |
| Friday, November 12th, 2004 |
| 11:27 pm |
I love Granville Island
I was suppose to see the new Bridget jones movie today but I skipped it and went to Granville Island instead. I freaken love Granville Island and Yummmmmmmmmm JJBean hot chocolate with chocolate whip. So let's see I spent 100.00 in 10 minutes on toys! Im so cool. It was pretty funny after I thought about it for a bit. I bought this awesome celestial lamp thing but it took a lot of work to put it together I can't believe it's for kids. It comes with all these templates and you take a nail and punch out holes that form constellations and then you have to tape them all together and they form this globe and then you put it over the lamp and it shines the night sky on your ceiling. Sound complicated? It bloody was! I also got lots of Pooh stuff for my Pooh corner(YAY) All in all it was a good day I came home made some chilli for dinner and just hung out. |
| Thursday, November 11th, 2004 |
| 9:30 pm |
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| 9:18 pm |
Why do people suck?
Why do people suck? I don't know why they just do! Lately work has been out of control. I don't understand why it is so hard for a major corporation to hire decent managers. I hate my manager he is a fat dumbass who just sits around eating all day while everyone else busts their behinds and then has the nerve to open his big mouth about stupid shit that doesnt even matter. He's a jerk! I can't beleive someone married him and had a kid with him. All I have to say is I feel sorry for his kid. But onto other things I was having super bad day and then my Bernie came home with flowers and they beautiful I frickin love them. They're like this bright deep blue roses with white lillies so that put me in a good mood. It's funny how a simple little thing can brighten your day. So yay! it's not that bad after all! |
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